Surely not the worst of times

I'm just having a terribly atrocious day. For the sake of J who tried with all his might (told me I shouldn't, once) to stop me from posting such a blog post - I won't get into the details.

Interestingly, I guess I'm not one to be depressed because I'm starting to feel better already. Maybe it's the artificial sunlight emanating from my macbook. Which I need to switch out for a new one tomorrow.

Tomorrow will surely be a better day.

Breakation

Being one of the first people back at Harvard has allowed me to do at Harvard what I haven't been able to do much of during break - sleep.

After a nice 3 hour nap on my bed, bathed by the New England sun, I woke up and began to think about my situation this semester.

I'll be starting off this semester as I haven't for the past two semesters, with a concrete plan in mind. Two anthro courses, one core course, and one VES course. Except I don't know which VES course I want to take. Animation? Do I want to spend infinity hours toiling away inside a building with students I will potentially dislike? Do I have a choice? Why are there so many fruit flies in my room?

I'll also be starting off this semester without a boyfriend. It hasn't been that way since the first day of school, hahah! Oh, the single life, how I've forgotten how it goes.

Finally, I need to start getting funding secured so I can make this South Africa trip a reality. Sonke Gender Justice Network - here I come!

I hope these fruit flies are all male so they don't mate and multiply.

Excerpts from Diaries Past: because blogs aren't the only places where I talk to myself

January 31, 2001

When I told you my eyes just don't cry no more

You left me stranded there at your door

By and by,

I've always been there

By your side

And now you've left me, alone, to cry.

Everyone goes through emo stages. I just went through mine at an earlier age.

March 28, 2001

Dear Diary,

Sigh, I've gotta say, Janey is all a person could wish for, beautiful, exercises a lot. Not too smart though! All I am is smart, smart, smart! Besides, DM (code name for my crush at the time; Janey was the contender) isn't made of the same material as I am. He's athletic and don't do work well. I'm the opposite! Sigh, should I just give up? I'm confused. Someone help me?

That was emo too.

January 5, 2002

Only one more day till the vacation's over!! Nooo! Oh, and the L.O.T.R guys name (in the movie) is... aw man, it was... or... Lag... Lagerons? No, Lag something. Real name, Orlando Bloom. I went on the internet and got pics though. I woulda had 4 or 5 but 2 didn't come out so now I only got 3 pics. Rats.

Thus began, what was later chronicled in my diaries, long periods of infatuation with certain movie stars. All of them British.

August 1, 2002

Dear Diary,

Hiz, Yup I just had mai first day o skool... the horror. Getting lost... not bein able 2 open mai locker... getting scheduled to the RONG CLASS! And then missing lunch because of waiting for a guidance councelor hoo would put me int he RITE CLASS, who never showed up!! GRRR!

But, none de less, it wasnt that bad. Thank god for good friends and pretty nice teachers. hope 2-morrows a betta day!

Wish me luk!

Yup, a couple months before that I started to use aim. How ever could you tell?

Oh it's strange to read through these again.

I wrote a lot, damn.

Obligatory New Years Post

I want to make resolutions this year, but the first resolution that comes to mind is something impossible sounding involving a 4.0 and weight loss. From that beginning resolutions already becoming a lark, something fun to do on New Years day and then conveniently and utterly forget about the day after. After all, what are resolutions but another nagging task I have to add on my already long list (which, by the way, you can have as a pop out on gmail, pretty cool).

But let's take a stab at it anyway - shall we?

- Maintain the same weight throughout this year. If there's any weight gain it'll be because of muscle.

- Pick classes that work in my favor so that I can retain a GPA at least as high as the one I got this semester.

- Have less self constraint, self consciousness

- Have nikes... and windmills

Eh, the shorter the list the better I can remember it.

Having a great time in Hawaii. Activities planned up the wahoo. If only I could drag myself awake to make it to them. I need to stop stressing during this time of relaxation.

Well, all in all I am excited for this upcoming year. This year I am turning twenty - I suppose that means I will have to be more mature or something ridiculous like that. Maybe a change of wardrobe, to reflect my new found maturity of course, or maybe not. Change is slow to come. I say wherever this year leads me, I won't even notice until the year is gone.

Cheers.